For D.

Dear d wrote a 'happy' entry on her blog as I've suggested on her facebook. Hahs! I hope I did not make you feel like you've been forced to make a happy post. But I'm surprised you did it :)

Feel your smile is crooked, fake? Many times I read your entries and find it so familiar and then I realized, I used to have such thoughts too. But no worries, that's just part of our lives.

I overlooked the good times in the past because I was hoping for too much. Trying to see into the future too much and counting every possible consequences for every action I were to take more than most people. Now I choose to live everyday like it's not just another day.

I may start sheding tears out of nothing, get angry all of a sudden even though I'm not totally sure why I do, just have sudden thoughts that I rather leave this world or anything that makes me a depress ass. I will forever be a temperamental bitch and an emotional piece of crap. I'm often missunderstood by others because for my sudden bad temper. They do not know that I don't take things to heart. I may not necessarily forget, but I do forgive for we are not perfect.

Learning to see that you're beautiful is a journey. Full of ups and downs but in the end it's the simplest things that makes you happy and beautiful.

ps. we'll meet soon!!! soon soon soon!!!